Dirty little secrets...
Everyone has them. It's true.
There's not a single human on this planet who doesnt have a dirty little secret or maybe multiple grubby secrets. Even Julie Andrews.
Well... ESPECIALLY Julie Andrews. Which is kind of my point. People who portray themselves as whiter than white, have secrets which are more notably SHOCKING than anyone else's (and this is the clever bit) simply because they appear as if butter wouldnt melt. SO the entire premise of being GOOD all the time, simply flags you up as a complete arsehole when you do something... less than white.
SO. I'm admitting it now... not that i've ever been whiter than white... I have done bad things. Lots of them. Maybe more than most people would ever dream of doing. AND although i'm proclaiming it here, publicly on my blog, i'm not proud of any of them.
YES, i'm a nice person. (despite my aforementioned secrets)
but NO... it doesnt mean i make the right decisions all the time... and frankly i think it's about time i confessed.
...i've made some WHOPPING mistakes.
But, i'd like this to be a public note... that i'm trying to be a better person... and i'm trying to learn from my mistakes. It's tough though. Mostly the bad things i've done, i lean toward doing again. Especially where boys come into the equation.
However... i stand here now (uncomfortably at my computer... sitting is definitely the preferred option) and i am proclaiming loudly (silently by TYPING) that i am indeed a human person.
and i have some dirty little secrets.
But i am trying to fix the damage i've done either internally or externally with my actions. Slowly.
All the time realising that people who would judge me if they found out, are as they say in france.... Like ze pot calling ze kettle, black.
(as an aside, i never really understood that saying - What happens if your kettle is black and your pot is silver. Then the pot can surely call the kettle black.... without fear of retribution)
and that is where my head's at today.
There's not a single human on this planet who doesnt have a dirty little secret or maybe multiple grubby secrets. Even Julie Andrews.
Well... ESPECIALLY Julie Andrews. Which is kind of my point. People who portray themselves as whiter than white, have secrets which are more notably SHOCKING than anyone else's (and this is the clever bit) simply because they appear as if butter wouldnt melt. SO the entire premise of being GOOD all the time, simply flags you up as a complete arsehole when you do something... less than white.
SO. I'm admitting it now... not that i've ever been whiter than white... I have done bad things. Lots of them. Maybe more than most people would ever dream of doing. AND although i'm proclaiming it here, publicly on my blog, i'm not proud of any of them.
YES, i'm a nice person. (despite my aforementioned secrets)
but NO... it doesnt mean i make the right decisions all the time... and frankly i think it's about time i confessed.
...i've made some WHOPPING mistakes.
But, i'd like this to be a public note... that i'm trying to be a better person... and i'm trying to learn from my mistakes. It's tough though. Mostly the bad things i've done, i lean toward doing again. Especially where boys come into the equation.
However... i stand here now (uncomfortably at my computer... sitting is definitely the preferred option) and i am proclaiming loudly (silently by TYPING) that i am indeed a human person.
and i have some dirty little secrets.
But i am trying to fix the damage i've done either internally or externally with my actions. Slowly.
All the time realising that people who would judge me if they found out, are as they say in france.... Like ze pot calling ze kettle, black.
(as an aside, i never really understood that saying - What happens if your kettle is black and your pot is silver. Then the pot can surely call the kettle black.... without fear of retribution)
and that is where my head's at today.
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